mandag 15. august 2011

Sleep paralysis medical people/portal

Dream I woke up from about 7-8 minutes ago, very fresh:

Trying to figure out the earliest memory from the dream. Anyway. At some point my dad was telling me/guiding me how to get to G-Sport, a sports store. "Straight forward now for 3 seconds" he said and I went through some curtains as he said "and down the nearest stairs" or something. Very soon, I came into a room where I previously hadn't necessarily been supposed to be. Not because it wasn't that allowed, but because it was a sort of medical room, for one of my friends (Jon). I immediately recognized a machine (which I had never seen before, but it made sense in the dream) and it had been used on him for some medical purposes or something, and he knew I knew that. The machine had letters printed on it, varying everytime I looked at it, which I didn't realize. The ultimate feeling I got from the letters that were there was "The Jon Machine" or somehow implementing his name into its brand, as if made for the purpose! I took my cellphone, and tried to take a picture of it so that I could show him later. It was a bit hard, and for some reason I took off my T-shirt so that the letters reflected from the machine and onto my skin, making it more visible (???) and I took a picture of myself in a mirror with the letters on me.

In the room with me were my mom and my brother and the owner of a local music store. He and my brother were discussing how to take measures of people. "I usually make them lie down and then measure them" "But that's what I did" etc. They were arguing friendly, becdause of the way my brother had taken a measure of me, where I was somehow bent in a way that wouldn't give a correct measure, at some point. Yeah, weird, but soon enough the music store guy was gone, and it was only me, and my mom and my brother and an older man I almost recognize. I think he was supposed to be the same man that is a sleep expert, I talked to him once about sleep paralysis when trying to figure out what it was. Apparently he was going to help me again, as if I'd never met him before, and talk to me about what I've experienced with sleep paralysis. Soon enough he was replaced by 2 women, doctors. We sat on chairs, and they were talking to me now.

They were asking me how I'd like to do this, and they compared it to a family situation somehow and asked me how I'd like them to act. It was as if they were assuming that during our talk, I might become rude or very brash, which I'm not. Anyway, they said something like "blablabla whether you'd like us to be like [insert something here] and be.. okay and nice or if you'd want us to become a bit rude/sarcastic".. it's hard to describe what they said, because they were asking me how I'd like the two of them to act, what role they should take, and which one of them were to do the "leading" in the conversation. I told them that it didn't matter to me who did the leading, and it almost seemed to surprise them. I continuned "I mean, I'm undecesive... I can't just pick away one of you, that would be unfair" or something. It seemed to amuse them a bit.

The next scene I remember, was that they were in control of the environment and had spawned or transformed into a big bunch of rabbits, as if in a cartoon. They were running around in circles and I was running around them and stuff. The rabbits pretended to create conflicts within their groups, as in.. several times, they would gather around in circles and leaving some rabbits out. It was as if they were testing me, that it was all some sort of test, to lead as an introduction to therapy or whatever they were gonna talk to me about. The rabbit scene was gone, and it soon reminded me of the game "Portal" where a lady is talking to you, giving instructions (you can't see her, she's usually on "speakers" in that game), just that it was a "kinder" sort, I felt, in the dream. I went through some tests, and I can only remember one of the tests now... to some extent. There was some big sink, with two parts/containers. Big as in, I could fit in it. I don't remember properly what was in it, but I had to close some lids I found in order to make some actions happen properly, and such. In the end, there was still something remaining, like a controversial solution to the test. Apparently it was to hold a big empty milk carton which happened to fit directly into a hole that suddenly seemed like the exit when you just realized it.

I got further and now I remember walking through some hall or long corridor with many doors. I had walked past some doors and was hesitating to open one door. All the doors would lead to different tests. The woman was speaking, and I didn't get such a friendly vibe, but I hoped she would think I was smart or something to have solved that test, and wondered what that would mean in practice. I went back to the first door and decided to start from the beginning. At some point here, before I had gone in (and I never did), I could hear her talking to me, and I don't remember exactly when I woke up, but as has happened many times before, I knew I had sleep parlaysis at some point while being in the dream. I got an impression the woman (who was guiding me) was carrying a staff, a sort of fighter staff. I got a threatening vibe from her, even though I couldn't see her, and I don't remember exactly what she said. I calmly tried to call for my mother. "Mom. ... Come here." In the dream, that was. Instead, this lady came forth, even though not necessarily physically, and I knew I had to be prepared to fight her or something. "But I'm already here" this lady said in a threatening/cheesy way. "I know you are", I said for some reason. "I can see you, you're right here, you're in my bed where I'm sleeping" (as I said this, I felt myself becoming more afraid even though I couldn't see her.. fear of her making presence in my bed). At some point she had said she will kill me, in the dream, but it seems to have lost importance or priority in the dream. After saying what I had said, though, I tried to make it less scary by controlling the dream and making her respond to something I said, with something like "but I'm everyone on Earth, I'm God." I don't remember now, what more she/he/it said and I don't remember more than that I knew I had sleep paralysis at the same time, and there was some nervous tension building up passively in my back/waist area, as usual. It didn't go all the way with the cramp, but I got loose from the sleep paralysis soon enough, and woke up to type this. I wasn't scared anymore at all when I had woken up though.


WOW, this is weird, almost creepy. I feel like I've been typing for 15-16 minutes, but the time says I've been writing for 45 minutes soon. That feels very untrue, but apparently..!

I dreamt other things too, but have trouble recollecting them.